I'm going back to see the Doc today to start this whole shebang all over again. Granted, it will be a little different this time having my sister on board, but it's the same set of fears and freak outs, though this time around I know what to expect. And when you know what to expect, or expect to not know what to expect, you can surrender a little easier to the process of whatever happens happens. Though I'm a seasoned veteran, I'm still really anxious.
I was looking back at some footage and realized how traumatic this whole process can really be. Even in moments of feeling hopeful and calm and accepting about this whole ordeal, I know I carry with me all the past disappointments and sadness. When I watch this stuff back I can't believe we lived through all this, and that I can be sitting here, smiling after a yoga class, writing about how things can get really rough but does make you stronger.
This video clip is from Thanksgiving day last year. We were midway through injections, coming in for an ultrasound to check on the follicle progress, when we got bad new that my follicles weren't developing as hoped. You can read the post about this day here and/or watch below. Happy Friday!
I cried when I watched your video "Tough Moments In IVF History". I know how you feel exactly. My third IVF just got cancelled today because I produced only one follicle. The previous two also got cancelled. Here in Australia, they would go ahead with egg collection with the amount of follicles that you have.
Posted by: Linda | December 08, 2013 at 07:35 PM