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December 03, 2013


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Don't Count Your Eggs

Ugh Jamie. I'm so sorry. And right around your birthday no less. The shock and disappointment that you've done all these shots and had procedures and spent all this money has resulted in nothing is so devastating. I get it. I get it several times over. I can't say that it gets less shocking the longer you're in this world, but I can say that I'm still standing. I love my husband more than ever and I'm a different person than I was, a better person. A patient person. A grateful person. It doesn't ease the sadness of the unfairness of it all. A short break may be good, but that too is hard. I'm turning 34 in April. I started this crap when I turned 30--well, trying at least. I feel super stressed out about time at times but I realize now that my time will come, and it will happen when it happens and all I can do is follow my heart and make the best decisions I can in any given moment. I wish you the best of luck and hope you journey on IF Island ends soon so a new beautiful chapter can begin.


Thank you for sharing! I just had my first unsuccessful IVF after trying everything for the past year and a half we thought for sure this was going to bring great results and much to our surprise, we are not pregnant. My husband isn't saying much, he is sad. My hear is broken and the rollercoaster of emotions we have been on for the past year and a half are overwhelming at times. I am ready to get off the ride, give myself a break, but I turned 33 yesterday and I feel like my clock keeps ticking. I can relate to so many of you. It really helps to read your positive posts. It is so hard to remain positive throughout this journey but it helps to hear other stories! Thanks for sharing and shedding some light and hope my way ;) Praying for all of you!

Don't Count Your Eggs

Thanks for your kind words Allison and Claire. It really means a lot to me. I'm so sorry you both relate so well to my journey, it sucks. Allison, my heart goes out to you and what you have coming in the new year really saddens me. I hope all goes as best as possible and that your luck changes for the better in 2014. Claire, it sounds like you and I are kind of in the same boat. The highs and lows are awful and I also hope 2014 proves to bring more highs. Sending lots of love and good thoughts your way ladies!


Maya - I just want to let you know that I am so glad that I found your blog. It must be hard to write about some of your struggles. I am also struggling (though nothing compared to yours) with 3 miscarriages. I am scheduled for a D&C and laproscopy in January and I share your feelings of looking at the sand fall thru the hour glass. Time feels like it's just ticking away. I hope you can find the peace you deserve and are able to relax, if even just for a bit. It is the holidays after all. Try a massage and a pedicure to treat yourself and relax! My thoughts are with you!


It is such a joy to read your blog! I have been feeling like I'm alone on IF island and then I found you. I have just finished a cycle of unsuccessful IVF that was converted to an IUI. Needless to say that didn't work either. I am 35 and will soon be 36 in February. The extreme highs and lows of going through IF are near impossible to manage, it is nice to know you are not alone. This blog is like a guilty pleasure, ice cream binge, and medical necessity all rolled into one. Lol! Good luck to you and keep up the good work, I look forward to every post!

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