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June 02, 2014


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I remember how heartbreaking it was to have a cycle cancelled--it's not just the heartbreak either, it's the $2-3,000 you've just injected into yourself for nothing, it's the raging hormones, it's the WAITING...

All good things to you.


I can't even believe what I am reading here. Heartbreaking! I was only on IF island for 2 years and it was hell. I can't even imagine... My love to you and Noah... Your baby is somewhere, trying to get through. I know it.

Me Thompson and Me

I get it. I've been doing this for almost 8 years and the rug has been pulled out more times than I can count. I hate it but I love your perspective (again)!

I understand the canceled cycle...but I honestly don't get the fact that the doctor can't call for two weeks. Did they say why? My doctor has called me at 9pm sometimes because that is when he finally has his 5 minutes. When he was out of the country - he had another doctor call me and the called immediately upon his return.

2 weeks is a long time to leave you hanging in limbo. I'm sorry that you have to go through it.



Oh no Maya, I'm so sorry to hear this :-(
Thinking of you and Noah xo


UGH. I'm so sorry :(


OMG I want to punch something for you. I was totally nodding my head when you wrote about being surprised by this outcome "after everything else" because I feel the same way- time after time I beat the odds IN THE WRONG DIRECTION, and yet each time I'm hopeful that THIS is the time things will be different. Do NOT lose hope. It is like dating- all it takes is one handsome, suave cycle to be the cycle that changes your life, and all of this will settle in to be a part of your story and not a part of your day to day.
P.S. I don't know if you're at the clinic I go to, but if you are, change doctors- they will let you. No doctor should be unreachable for two weeks. At least see if they'll let you email- that's what I always end up doing.

Don't Count Your Eggs

Thanks for all the love everyone. I'm sure a lot of you can relate to this feeling of disappointment. I keep thinking at that least our embryo is still there, it's just figuring out when and how we can go get it. The saga continues...


Jeez....that really is crap. And you have very right to feel sorry for yourself. Sorry xx


Absolutely awful, disappointing, frustrating news. I am so sorry. I think you are being heroic in all of this, and I have confidence that when the pain eases up a bit you will come back fighting. Everything is crossed for a giant bucket of luck to come winging its way in your direction very soon.


I'm so sorry! Big hug to you. It's so frustrating to cancel but seems like the right decision to postpone until everything is optimal. This will all definitely be a distant memory one day!! Love the positive outlook.

Also, for your next FET protocol, there is also a medicated option only using estrogen patches/pills.


Speechless. I just want you to get a long overdue break!!

A Few Good Eggs

I am so sorry to read this update. So, so frustrating and you have every right to be incredibly disappointed and to feel sorry for yourself. Good for you for writing your own protocol. Why not? At some point in the midst of all of this, you become an expert. Hang in there.


So sorry to hear this news Maya. Thinking of you both xo


Ugh!!!! Sucks! I am so sorry.


I'm so sorry to hear about your cancelled cycle. My last cycle was cancelled too and it has made us more determined to see this process through. This will be a distant memory for you and Noah. Take care!

Lindsay Monnier

I don't know that I even have the words to express my sorrow for you and all that you have been through. I want to scream for you and cry with you.


I'm so sorry. I'm not sure who you are going through in Seattle but I recommend Overlake Reproductive Health. Much different and better customer care at Overlake than at one of the other places in Seattle.

I really hope for the best and I'm hoping with you.


Wow. this really sucks. sorry xo

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